Throwback Thursday- 22/10/20

When my husband I were first together we watched the film Dirty Dancing all of the time. This song is still a favourite.

Tuesday Thought – 20/10/20

There’s a huge debate going on all over England- in homes, online, in government, in the media – about whether England should go into another lockdown.

IMO no.

This isn’t a political post. This is my personal reason for why I do not want another nationwide lockdown.

My mental health buckled under the last lockdown. I was on the verge of a breakdown, all brought to the fore by lockdown.

Yes, I’m on medication now, but there’s no emotional support here once everything locks down. Everyone is dealing with their own personal crises once lockdown hits. Me saying “I’m drowning again, please help” feels very selfish when people have their own MH to worry about.

I don’t want to have to be in that dark place again. Fear having control of my life. Not being able to sleep because hyper vigilance is ramped up to the max. The four walls closing in on me, jumping at any noise outside and wondering who might be watching.

Yes, this all sounds selfish when you compare it to what’s happening with the pandemic. I just don’t know if I’ll survive another lockdown mentally.

Monday Mooncards – 19/10/20.

Full Moons are about bringing things to their conclusion, letting go and this card can suggest endings in friendships, relationships, working partnerships, and so on.

This is the right time for such an ending. It’s time to put your trust in the universe and let go. Trust that what is happening serves a purpose in your life, trust that this is right for you.

The win-win aspect is giving permission for you to focus on yourself. Letting go of something can leave you with a sense of emptiness, use that void to focus on you.

Alternatively there is the suggestion of an ending to altercations that have blighted you. Arguments. Upsets. They are falling away and things are looking up.

When you let go of anything it is normal to feel lost. Take care of yourself. Trust in the process. Be kind to yourself and love you.

Trust that life is moving you forward to better things.

Today I realised that….

….it’s ok for me to be happy.

That took a huge chunk of time to realise, but I no longer feel guilty for being happy. It’s ok. It’s allowed.

Wow!

Recovering from trauma and PTSD episodes is really hard, but once I let go of how I thought I should feel and just allowed myself to be……that’s when the miracles started to happen. The miracles of happiness and feeling that happiness right to my core. The miracle that I actually love who I am, and that’s how it should be. The miracle that allows me to trust people who aren’t my family.

Wow!

Be happy, start living.

Moonday Cards – 11/10/20

If you’ve been feeling paranoid and acting weird, you can take this card as a very direct message from the Universe that you can stop now.

Worrying yourself is pointless. It’s time to release any negativity that has built up around your situation.

If you’re worrying about how a person has been treating you, then it’s time to let that go. Release any anger you have. Release any negative feelings. This doesn’t mean you’ve let them win, on the contrary, letting the situation go (and quite often the person/people) is very liberating. Forgiving them frees you.

Letting negativity go is the best possible thing for us to do. Holding on to all that anger, resentment, hatred, it gets us nowhere. In fact, it can often make us ill. Best to let it all go.

You can write about the situation on a piece of paper, read it through and then burn it. Alternatively you can tear the paper into tiny pieces and flush it down the toilet – you could use toilet paper if you’d rather flush that instead.

Just breathe. Then let go.