The Celtic Tree month of Willow has just begun. I always aim to incorporate the tree months into my life, but somehow it just never happens. I begin by bringing up the information I have and pinpointing where we are within the cycle. I usually manage this for a couple of months and then life happens and it all falls by the wayside.
Of course I am so determined about such stuff that I’m having another go. So, what can be expceted during this month? Well, throughout this tree month – which runs from April 15th until May 12th – we should be concentrating on healing, growth of knowledge, nurturing and women’s mysteries. I aim to expand my knowledge in a certain area, so that seems appropriate right now. I have been involved in some distance healing with someone – nothing too strenuous though – and I have been nurturing my seedlings, so far so good. Also, my book is kind of about women’s mysteries too, so I think I am ticking all of the boxes for this month, which pleases me.
One thing I always complain about is how my real life has a tendency to get in the way of my spiritual life. I have tried to incorporate the two, somehow it never works out. I think because I am happy to remain in the closet the two aspects of my life remain seperate and whilst that frustrates me no end, I think it is just how it is and how it will always be.
Of course another aspect of real life that gets in the way of me practicing is duty. I am learning that I am entitled to a life of my own, that I can and should say no at times. I am learning that it is healthy for me to say no, especially when I am not feeling 100%. In recent times I have had many heavy burdens to bear and they have taken their toll on me. But last week I put my foot down and refused to be the dogsbody for everyone anymore. I took three days out from those burdens and felt better for it. They are still there, but other people managed without me and I have done the same again this weekend.
This doesn’t mean I have not had to talk myself out of the immense guilt that washes over me. I am pretty adept at having to have a word with myself when it comes to releasing my grip on situations. But it does mean I am managing my time better and doing what I want for myself, something that has been lacking recently. I only hope I can keep this up and can manage to stay true to myself.