The High Priestess is all about our inner knowing, our intuition. She whispers softly to us and sometimes we hear her loud and clear, other times we feel like we have imagined it and to our detriment we ignore her. That is usually how it is with me, I know deep down what I need to do to get to where I want to go, but I just plough right on ahead without paying any heed to my own High Priestess.
You would think that the fact that I know this would see me make a change, right?
I tell people all of the time to be tough with those who are keeping them from achieving what it is they want, then I go right back to all of the silliness that keeps me from doing what needs to be done. Despite my inner High Priestess guiding me I still fail to go where I need to. For me it isn’t a physical place, it is me being firm with everyone who wants a piece of me. It doesn’t matter what I say they just continue to ask me to do this, to take them here, there and everywhere, to involve me in pointless dramas that could easily be solved by actually applying themselves. But it is so much easier for them to involve me, to get me to make the effort for them, to just ask me to drive them to wherever rather than ask someone else. And like the dutiful person I am, I abandon my needs and desires and go running – not literally!
That is a very good question and one that only I can answer. I know that to get to where I want to be I have to focus on me and what I want to do, rather than allow everyone else to hijack my time when they could easily deal with their own stuff. This is what my inner High Priestess is telling me to do. She tells me that if I want to get anywhere with my creative dream I have to concentrate on myself and be firm with everyone else who wants to have a piece of me.
And so I shall listen to her. I shall, from today onwards, be firm when I am asked to play referee, or answer endless calls, or respond to requests for advice etc. I am not shutting myself off from everyone, I am merely shifting my focus back onto myself rather than onto everyone else. They have gotten to used to me dropping everything in a heartbeat for their needs. This does not mean that emergencies will be ignored. They absolutely will not be. But the vast majority of the calls on my time are things that can wait until I have a little more time later in the day. After all, if I was out at work I would not be able to just drop everything and respond.
I need to be firm for the sake of my dream and to allow myself to follow it.