It amuses me no end when people say that I am into “weird shit”, or that I am just “an old hippy”. What they say about me could be worse, right? I have told the tale before of how I stumbled across the pagan/witchcraft scene. I’m not going to go back there again, I’m sure you all know by now. What I do want to say, however, is how this kind of lifestyle really helps bring out the best version of yourself.
As you know, I stumbled across this lifestyle when I was 14 and didn’t do an awful lot about it until after I was attacked. In fact, I would say it was the attack was the catalyst for me really embracing this lifestyle. I would have never had a church wedding if handfasting was readily available in my neck of the woods, (you have no idea how many times me and Neil almost eloped back in 1990), but the only alternative was a shabby room in the Registrar Office. Neil definitely knew about my beliefs before we got married and when we had our kids I would never have had them Christened but he wanted them to be Christened and as much as I am all about promoting this kind of lifestyle, they are as much his kids as they are mine and I have always respected his wishes when it came down to making decisions about them. When they were growing up I kept my beliefs and practices hidden because I know how narrow-minded people can be, and one of my daughter’s had enough problems at school without my beliefs making things tougher for her.
However, once there was no more school to deal with I began to relax my privacy rules on my beliefs. I know many people thought I had just stumbled across paganism back in 2008, or thereabouts, but the reality is, I discovered it in 1985. It was never something I discussed with my family – other than Neil and our kids – and I don’t really talk that much about it now. Sure, they know, or they, at least, know something, it’s kind of hard not to know; I read Tarot/Oracle cards, I do rituals and have an in-depth knowledge of many things that would be termed witchcraft, plus, I have a tree/nature Goddess tattooed on my right arm.
But I digress, why so much positivity?
Living your life following your own path, incorporating aspects of paganism, witchcraft, shamanism and so on, you cannot help but have some of that positivity rub off on you. Positive thinking is a trend these days and I love that it is becoming mainstream. You can literally follow any religion you like, or be non-religious if that’s your thing, and have a positive mindset.
Some people have a tendency to ask what I’ve been smoking, but I have found that they have issues of their own to work out and being positive may not be their mindset just yet. That’s OK with me, we are all walking our own path and we all have different obstacles and challenges to deal with that are unique to us. It’s hard for someone who is struggling with their challenges to accept other people’s positive outlooks. I know, I have been that person.
We come to our own positive mindset in our own time and we will face many challenges along the way. We will also revert back to the negativity that holds us back on occasion, that’s OK, just so long as we don’t set up home in the negative outlook again. Living a positive life doesn’t mean you don’t get pissed off with people anymore, on the contrary. Living a positive life, for me, has meant that people will annoy me, they will test my patience, but now I am able to have my moment of anger, sadness, hurt, whatever and deal with that. I deal with the negative and learn from it and then move on. For me, it has meant I have more happy moments in my life. I don’t have an angry aura surrounding me. I am responsible for myself and my emotions, I deal with my emotions and do the best I can not to affect those people around me, thus the people around me are more welcoming and less likely to be negative.
For me, dealing in positives is the best way to live my life. It isn’t about burying my head in the sand and I don’t live in cloud-cuckoo land. Like everyone else, I have challenges that I have to deal with and I have annoyances that show up in my life, but dealing with them from a positive place is right for me and it helps me stay in a positive mindset.