The past year has been difficult for me in many ways; hurt and betrayal, pain like I’ve never experienced before from several knee dislocations (the same knee), and having to admit defeat in areas I’d rather have kept going with.
I always look at the bigger picture and can usually see a reason for what is happening, some of what has happened feels like it needed to in order for me to grow. Other things just felt pointless and painful.
There has been loss, grief, pain, betrayal, followed by joy, laughter, happiness and a renewed sense of purpose towards the end of the year.
This year I’ve learnt a lot, lost a fair amount, gained a fair amount too. The year felt like I was losing more than I was gaining, but I guess we tend to feel loss more keenly.
Overall 2016 has shown me that people don’t let you down, they just show you who they really are.
I feel like I have come full circle this past year, and although I may not have gained much ground, I am not where I was this time last year; but the experiences I have gained far outweigh the disappointment I could feel.
In order for me to grow I have let go of pain and fear, toxic people who do nothing but play the blame game, and anything that lacked authenticity in my life.
As the year comes to a close I’m releasing all that no longer serves me and looking forward to 365 days of living and experiencing life.