Monday Musings – 25/11/2019

Worrying about stuff is a normal, human trait. I do it, probably more than I’d care to admit. We all do it to some degree. It can be useful in the short term, helping us problem solve among other things.

But too much worrying is bad for our mental wellbeing. It sucks the life out of us. It robs us of our lives. A useful tool I’ve been using a lot is to write down everything, no matter how trivial it seems, that is worrying me. Then I work through my list, prioritising important stuff and relegating trivial stuff to a piece of paper that I burn.

I agree, some things that worry us won’t leave us alone, but there are things that we worry about that drain us and rob us of our mental wellbeing. These are the worries we need to let go of.

Monday Musings 18/11/2019.

One thing I’ve found hard on this journey called life, is not giving a damn about what other people think of me. There are days where I really couldn’t care less, their opinion of me isn’t my business, and there are days when I find myself crippled by anxiety over what someone has said, or allegedly said.

Why the hell do we do this to ourselves?

If we get caught up in what the haters think then we are giving them free reign over our lives. Live your life and forget about those who haven’t got anything positive to say to you, or about you. Leave them to their toxicity.

Review of Home Truths.

I was not prepared for how this book would hit me right in the feels. The book begins with Steve Watts furiously searching for his eldest son Liam. Liam has been led astray and now hangs out with dangerous people. When Steve arrives onto one of the area’s notorious estates he is met with a deathly silence. Furious that his younger son has found a syringe, Steve begins shouting in anger, calling out for his eldest son.

But then the unthinkable happens. Steve is attacked by a group of men and dies from his injuries.

Angie Watts is Steve’s widow and mother to Liam and two other children. She is struggling to make ends meet and her unscrupulous landlord is leaning on her to pay her rent arrears. She isn’t able to meet these payments and finds herself being evicted.

This book is hard-hitting with the accurate way it tells of county lines drug gangs, extreme poverty and hardship, as well as potential child abduction and human trafficking. The story is so realistic it could easily have been an article portrayed in the media.

The storyline is hard-hitting and shocking, but the determination of Angie Watts is what drives the story forward and keeps the reader engaged. I certainly couldn’t put this book down. My emotions were all over the place as I read through this book, I couldn’t figure out which way the story would finish and I eagerly read on, despite the gritty drama that was unfolding.

This book is a gripping account of what life can be like for people facing hardships so severe they will do whatever they have to do to keep their family safe.

I cannot recommend this book highly enough. A rollercoaster ride from start to finish.

Five star rated – *****

Mother Earth.

I’ve come to understand something lately, belief is power. I always knew that, but never fully embraced what it actually meant, until recently.

I’ve started believing in me. I believe I can do whatever I put my mind to. To me that’s the true beauty of faith, believing in your own power.

That’s not to say I don’t believe in a higher power, I do. Again, it’s taken me a long time to fully realise who I feel that higher power is.

Mother Earth. Mother Nature. I see her everywhere and I marvel at her beauty. I see her ravaged body and I feel her pain. I feel her softness as I walk barefoot in my garden. I watch her circle of life every year unfold before my very eyes.

Mother Earth.

She is beauty.

She is power.

Monday Musings – 04/11/2019.

I’ve spent the past few months trying to smile instead of frown, or glare. It hasn’t always worked, life sometimes just throws huge curveballs at us and it’s difficult to see the positive.

What I have noticed is that whenever I smile instead of feeling gloomy or angry, I feel more adept at dealing with whatever life has thrown at me.