Tuesday Thought – 20/10/20

There’s a huge debate going on all over England- in homes, online, in government, in the media – about whether England should go into another lockdown.

IMO no.

This isn’t a political post. This is my personal reason for why I do not want another nationwide lockdown.

My mental health buckled under the last lockdown. I was on the verge of a breakdown, all brought to the fore by lockdown.

Yes, I’m on medication now, but there’s no emotional support here once everything locks down. Everyone is dealing with their own personal crises once lockdown hits. Me saying “I’m drowning again, please help” feels very selfish when people have their own MH to worry about.

I don’t want to have to be in that dark place again. Fear having control of my life. Not being able to sleep because hyper vigilance is ramped up to the max. The four walls closing in on me, jumping at any noise outside and wondering who might be watching.

Yes, this all sounds selfish when you compare it to what’s happening with the pandemic. I just don’t know if I’ll survive another lockdown mentally.