Thursday’s Thought – 14/01/21

We are almost half way through the first month of a brand new year, and boy do I feel like it’s been a tough one already.

Mercury is in the shadow period it encounters right before retrograding, yep, we’ve got that coming up at the end of the month.

We’ve just had the New Moon (early hours of Wednesday morning for us in the UK), so there’s the energies still rolling on from that.

There’s a whole host of other planets creating a storm right now too, so it’s no wonder we are all feeling the energy bouncing around us and shaking everything up.

That’s why we need to care for and nurture ourselves. As the quote says, you can’t pour from an empty cup.

Whatever you choose to do for yourself over the next few days, be gentle with yourself and others too. We are all feeling it right now.

❤️

Monday Motivation. 28/12/20

Much has been said about how awful this year has been for many of us, let’s face it, this year has been bad on so many levels.

I’m ending the year on a positive note. I just feel there’s been too much heaviness around me and want to bring more lightness into my life.

This is the last Monday of this difficult year, so instead of bemoaning what has been wrong with life, try focusing on what positive things you have had happen this year.

FOCUS ON ALL THE GOOD IN YOUR LIFE!

Tuesday Tip – 15/12/20.

One of the things I find with self care is what we can actually do. It’s all very well saying we are going to practice self care, but we can often be left feeling stumped by what we should do.

Below are some suggestions to get started on the self care journey, even when ideas seem to be evading us.

Tis the season….

Wow! I can hardly believe it’s December!

What a year this has been. I started it off with the intention of loving myself. Regular readers of this blog will know that I have struggled with a lack of self love for a very long time. Instead of making New Year’s resolutions – which I always break by the middle of February at the very latest – I decided to dedicate the year to loving myself. I started off great, I was able to practice self love each day; that was until we hit lockdown in March.

That was when things went downhill.

I have CPTSD – Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder – and had been in a hyper vigilant state for most of my adult life. I had gone through therapy that had helped me enormously, but I lost my ability to cope once the UK went into lockdown.

I became so paranoid and stressed, I was crying most days and really couldn’t cope with the threat of being stopped by the police or some other official anytime I left the house.

By my birthday I’d had a breakdown and was in a really dark place. I felt like I had failed at the self love project and started thinking very dark and scary thoughts. I eventually went to see a Dr. and got prescribed anti-depressants.

After a few weeks I began to feel better in myself. That nearly came to an end in late summer, I needed a smear and the first attempt failed – I was really calm and positive too. The second attempt was a disaster also. Flashbacks, panic attacks, massive triggers….they also couldn’t get a sample of cells. I cried all the way home. I felt like I was 16 again.

But out of that experience I felt empowered to help other women who have suffered any form of sexual violence, and domestic abuse too. I was so determined to put my own experiences to some use that I enrolled with the OU to study Psychology with Counselling.

And as we enter the final month of what can only be termed as a horrific year, I feel empowered, well, happy, determined, and I certainly practice self love.

You see, I now know that going to the GP to get the medication was an act of self love. I know that pushing through my trauma triggers and flashbacks has catapulted me forward to a place where I can try to make a difference to women who have suffered at the hands of rapists and abusers.

2020 broke me. But I rose from the ashes and I am rebuilding my life on my own terms.

This year the holiday season feels more poignant than ever before. This year has been dominated by loss. It has driven home the message for me that life is for living.

Monday Mooncards – 09/11/20

This card has cropped up before for Monday Mooncards, I’m so happy to see it again.

It really is asking us to trust the universe right now. I know, I get it, it’s been a tough year. But there’s a shift occurring and it’s leading us all forward to better times.

I know how hard it is to put your faith in anything right now, believe me, I’m there. But if you’re feeling overwhelmed, take a breath. If you’re feeling stuck, let go.

Trust.

Trust that the end is nigh. The end to whatever is causing you pain and suffering, or turmoil.

Breathe and just be. All will be well.

Monday Mooncards – 19/10/20.

Full Moons are about bringing things to their conclusion, letting go and this card can suggest endings in friendships, relationships, working partnerships, and so on.

This is the right time for such an ending. It’s time to put your trust in the universe and let go. Trust that what is happening serves a purpose in your life, trust that this is right for you.

The win-win aspect is giving permission for you to focus on yourself. Letting go of something can leave you with a sense of emptiness, use that void to focus on you.

Alternatively there is the suggestion of an ending to altercations that have blighted you. Arguments. Upsets. They are falling away and things are looking up.

When you let go of anything it is normal to feel lost. Take care of yourself. Trust in the process. Be kind to yourself and love you.

Trust that life is moving you forward to better things.

Today I realised that….

….it’s ok for me to be happy.

That took a huge chunk of time to realise, but I no longer feel guilty for being happy. It’s ok. It’s allowed.

Wow!

Recovering from trauma and PTSD episodes is really hard, but once I let go of how I thought I should feel and just allowed myself to be……that’s when the miracles started to happen. The miracles of happiness and feeling that happiness right to my core. The miracle that I actually love who I am, and that’s how it should be. The miracle that allows me to trust people who aren’t my family.

Wow!

Be happy, start living.

Moonday Cards – 11/10/20

If you’ve been feeling paranoid and acting weird, you can take this card as a very direct message from the Universe that you can stop now.

Worrying yourself is pointless. It’s time to release any negativity that has built up around your situation.

If you’re worrying about how a person has been treating you, then it’s time to let that go. Release any anger you have. Release any negative feelings. This doesn’t mean you’ve let them win, on the contrary, letting the situation go (and quite often the person/people) is very liberating. Forgiving them frees you.

Letting negativity go is the best possible thing for us to do. Holding on to all that anger, resentment, hatred, it gets us nowhere. In fact, it can often make us ill. Best to let it all go.

You can write about the situation on a piece of paper, read it through and then burn it. Alternatively you can tear the paper into tiny pieces and flush it down the toilet – you could use toilet paper if you’d rather flush that instead.

Just breathe. Then let go.