This has been on my mind a lot lately. I’ve been doing a couple of collaborations with some folks, and yep, you’ve guessed it, I’ve questioned my ability and my right to be there.
I’m as qualified as everyone else, but I can’t shake that feeling of being a fraud. Everyone is telling me that I am welcome and worthy and wanted. It’s just my thoughts that are trying to catch me out.
It’s got to the point where I’m having panic attacks before I do my role and I’m feeling stressed out. So I’ve been working on my self esteem and making sure to do some breathing exercises beforehand.
As always, be kind and gentle with yourself if you are going through similar.
This card is telling us to keep going, what we want/desire is within reach. Don’t give up now, you’ve come this far.
Stay focused on what you want. Just because you can’t see your dreams, doesn’t mean that they aren’t manifesting. Stay focused on moving forward, towards your goal.
This card teaches us that to achieve our goals we have to put the work in and make sure we are actually working towards them. It tells us that so long as we do this, we will manifest what we want.
Manifesting is a great way to actually get the life we want, but we need to put the leg work in on our side too. We need to understand that the universe/fate/goddess/god, etc does not just give us the life we want. We have to do the work too.
But manifesting our goals can and does take time. If you decide you want to move into a house that is twice as big as you have now, it is going to take some work.
This is where the card is showing us that dreams can become reality and giving up isn’t the best option. Hanging in there is worth it. As this card suggests.
Today I am feeling very at peace with life. I have to admit, this has been a long time coming. I’m relaxed, happy, at peace with myself, and the world around me.
Meditation has played a key role in getting me to this point. I have been meditating for many years, admittedly irregularly, but this was the basis for my regular practice.
Regular readers of this blog will know I have had many struggles, so for me to be this well is a huge step.
Meditation doesn’t have to be complicated, unless you want it to be, of course. The simplest way to meditate is to get comfortable, sitting or laying down, then you close your eyes and focus on your breath, the inhale and the exhale.
What I found when I first started meditating many years ago, was that thoughts would pop into my head, distracting me. I also couldn’t focus for a huge length of time; you’re usually expected to meditate for at least five minutes. In the beginning I could barely hold my thoughts still for one or two minutes, so I decided to start with one minute and build it up.
I find that if you cannot follow a guided meditation, and let’s face it, there are times when someone talking away in the background when you’re trying to relax and be at one with yourself, that’s very distracting.
That’s why focusing on your breath is a really good way to get to grips with meditating. Some people will say they don’t do meditation because of their lack of experience and their attention span not being good enough to get in the zone.
Today, just take a moment to focus on your breath. Observe the inflow and outflow of your breath, the rise and fall of your chest. It doesn’t have to be complicated, this simple technique can be a really good starting point for a meditation practice.
As the keywords suggest, celebrations and bright blessings are on the cards. This card is highly indicative of friendships, sisterhood, joyous relationships.
This card is encouraging the coming together of friends and celebrating, having fun, sharing stories and troubles, putting the world to rights.
There is also the other side to this card, not a darker element as the card isn’t reversed, but more of a working nature. The suggestion is that if you’ve been pondering reaching out to others to collaborate on projects, whether they be of a work nature or on a personal level, this is a positive sign and time to do so.
All in all this is a very happy and bright card to have and we all could use some positivity right now.
This card is so appropriate for me today, I can tell you! I’m facing a really challenging week and the accuracy here, for me, is amazing.
This card suggests a rebirth. It asks us to think of the situations that hold us in fear as the Phoenix that is rising from the ashes.
It’s also time to let go of any grudges you’re holding onto. Move on from jealousy. Stop being obsessive.
Scorpio energy can be dark and intense. There’s always the sense of needing to work through our shadow side – how else do we get the rebirth, right?
Working through your shadow self/side transforms you. It propels your forward into the light – bringing awareness to so much darkness within you, granted, it’s not all bad. But working with these energies helps you to understand the persona you hide from the world.
That darker side of ourselves that can leave us fearing what we might do if we ever allowed that part of ourselves out into the daylight.
But working on this shadow self is so enlightening and transformative. So if this card resonates with you then you know what you need to do.
I always used to do my weekly self care on a Sunday; lots of journaling, meditating, checking in with myself, etc.
Then my granddaughter was born and my daughter was getting out of a very violent and dangerous relationship with her baby’s father. We stepped up and took on the role of second parent to make sure they both thrived. My self care routine was halved as I just didn’t have time anymore.
When my PTSD flared back up I found it was essential to take care of myself properly. Easier said than done. It’s taken a lot of setbacks, therapy, anti-depressants, in-depth journaling, and much, much more for me to get to this point.
I’m the best I have been in years, emotionally. I give thanks to everyone who has stuck by me, helping, understanding and so on. It’s been a rough ride.
This is why Sunday soothers is important to me. It helps me check in with myself. I also hope it helps you do the same. Even five minutes is better than not at all.
This card is telling us to forgive in order to heal. Sometimes we hold on to anger, whether that be directed towards a person or a situation, but we have to ask ourselves “where is this anger getting me?”
Old hurts can fester within us if we don’t forgive and let go of them. This in turn causes pain and we feel that old hurt over and over again. You become trapped in a prison of your own making, which is not what any of us really want.
It’s now time to cut those invisible cords that are binding you to the hurt. Free yourself from this persistent pain and allow healing to move you forward with your life.
This card is also saying do not get caught up in any unnecessary drama. It’s easy for us to do this, but right now we should be focusing on ourselves and not allowing the dramas from other people drag us down.
This isn’t a selfish act, this is soul love and self love. This kind of action is healthy and has our best interest at heart.
Forgive, let go, heal – let that be your mantra for the next few days.